Psalm 119:81-88 ESV –
81 [Kaph] My soul longs for your salvation; I hope in your word.
82 My eyes long for your promise; I ask, “When will you comfort me?”
83 For I have become like a wineskin in the smoke, yet I have not forgotten your statutes.
84 How long must your servant endure? When will you judge those who persecute me?
85 The insolent have dug pitfalls for me; they do not live according to your law.
86 All your commandments are sure; they persecute me with falsehood; help me!
87 They have almost made an end of me on earth, but I have not forsaken your precepts.
88 In your steadfast love give me life, that I may keep the testimonies of your mouth.
Some days are easier than others. There. I spoke it out loud. Some days I feel lonely. useless. misunderstood. misused. dismissed. tired. pain-ridden. foggy-brained. . . (feel free to add your own modifiers)
When I am having one of those “what’s the point?” days (and, yes, there have been
many more than one, over the years) I am even more grateful than usual for God’s Word planted (stored) in my heart. God’s truth must have more credibility than my feelings. That even sounds strange to say — “of course, God’s Word is true!” but, be honest — what has more impact on your mood, your identity, your behavior: your feelings, or God’s Word?
Feelings come and go. Seriously. Some days I feel useful. content. hopeful. significant . . .(feel free to add your own modifier). Is God’s Word more true on those days? No. “Forever, O Lord, Your Word is firmly fixed in the heavens . . ” (Psalm 119:89). There is no substitute for memorizing/meditating on God’s Word. Otherwise, I am prone to believe my feelings. And my feelings change. But . . .
Psalm 102:25-27 ESV –
25 Of old you [God] laid the foundation of the earth, and the heavens are the work of your hands.
26 They will perish, but you will remain; they will all wear out like a garment. You will change them like a robe, and they will pass away,
27 but you are the same, and your years have no end.
By the way, if Psalm 119 intrigues you, Sweeter Than Chocolate: an Inductive Study of Psalm 119, by Pam Gillaspie is an excellent “digging deeper” into this psalm. There will be an online, live discussion of this 8 week study, beginning June 13. Beloved Truth Psalm 119 study. You can purchase the workbook here Amazon or here Precept Ministries
If your schedule doesn’t allow for a weekly commitment, Pam Gillaspie is also offering her study on her website in a flexible format. You can sign up here https://pamgillaspie.com/
Having God’s Word in my heart is the only way that I can survive the “wineskin in the smoke” days . . .
And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9
As for you, brothers, do not grow weary in doing good. 2 Thessalonians 3:13
Consider him [Jesus] who endured such hostilities against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted. Hebrews 12:3
Ok. It seems as though the opening verses completely disagreed with the title. But there is a difference between being weary and growing weary.
God knows we get weary.
for he knows our frame, he remembers that we are dust. . .Psalm 103:14
Jesus tells us to come to him in our weariness,
Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. . . Matthew 11:28
The difference is on whom I rely for my strength. Where do I run for my antidote for weariness?
for we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life . . .that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead. . .2 Corinthians 1:8-9
I think we all have experienced the consequences of trying to do it all in my own strength, pulling myself up by my bootstraps and gritting my teeth (so who wants to be exhausted,overwhelmed, tripping over your boots and getting a sore jaw from gritting your teeth??)
Being weary is a part of life. Growing weary, ready to give up, feeling despairing and hopeless, is part of the consequence of kindling my own fires, making my own torches. It is relying on myself, rather than on God.
It is exhausting.
Why do you say, O Jacob, and speak, O Israel, ‘my way is hidden from The Lord, and my right is disregarded by my God?’
Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the Everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Isaiah 40:27-29
Weariness should drive me straight to Jesus. Humility tells me to admit my weakness, and accept God’s strength. God is glorified in my life when I am openly admitting my utter dependence on God’s grace.
Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for The Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:30-31
It is God who strengthens me to live another day. It is his power that gives me hope. His power is perfected in my weakness (see 2 Corinthians 12).
Come to Jesus — the right response to weariness.